|That's Mom's addition on the right in this photo. We escorted her down that ramp for a walk nearly every day for 12 years.|
During these years I made a poor choice of a floor-care product for Mom's apartment. It was a hardwood floor cleaner, that, unbeknownst to me, left a residue behind. Each week we would spread another layer of this glossy stuff on Mom's floor, and the smudges and scuffs would be temporarily polished away. After Mom moved out last fall, I decided to deep clean, and so I used an ammonia solution to remove the old polish. To my dismay, layer upon layer of the polish had accumulated. Even now, after multiple cleanings, the track marks from Mom's walker resurface a few days after I've scrubbed. I don't know how long it will take for the marks to disappear for good.
This morning I was reading my Bible and praying when an illustration came to mind. Daily realignment with the Lord through Scripture and prayer is like a thorough scrubbing that removes the pain of the scars our hearts bear. If we fail to seek the Lord regularly, we carry the burden of the tracks our sorrows have made upon our hearts. The resultant emotional pain impacts our treatment of others so that we are unable to channel God's love in a way that helps and heals. Apart from the Lord, we are misguided to wrong goals, and we become relief-seekers rather than needs-meeters.
It's liberating to remember we aren't in charge of healing ourselves, or even of figuring out what is wrong so that we can focus on doing better. Our only responsibilities are to seek God first, and then to trust Him to take care of the rest.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.