I want to share with you how gently the Lord dealt with me as I began to open my heart and mind to Him, asking His forgiveness for all the sins I condemn in myself. I share it at this caregiving blog because I know about the chronic sense of failure that is inherent in being a caregiver for someone who has dementia, especially if that person is someone who used to take care of you in the past.
If you've been a Christian for awhile there are probably points on your timeline where you have answered "yes" to the Lord's call, choices you may have forgotten but the Lord has not. I want to offer you the comfort I found as I prayed today, recorded with the Lord's portion of the conversation in boldfaced print:
What is in front of you?Cleaning the bathroom. Straightening this room. Taking Mom for a walk.Why do you feel these things are of less value than what Katie Davis has done?Things like cleaning dead rats out of stovepipes? Changing a diaper of a child and finding it full of worms? Ministering to HIV positive children, kissing the heads of ringworm and scabies infected children?While I overeat, sink into laziness and depression, and procrastinate about cleaning a bathroom that isn’t very dirty at all—and …Stop.Stop right now. You have obeyed me, no less than Katie Davis has obeyed Me. At the same age she was when I laid My hand upon her life, you responded to a similar call.
What? I got married.So. However improbable it seems, the Lord in His perfect knowledge values my small acts of obedience just as He does those of a Christlike role model such as Katie Davis. And He doesn't want me making tongue-in-cheek analogies, as I might be tempted to compare Katie's ministry to an Olympic gymnasts' floor routine and my own to an out-of-shape 59-year-old's attempt to do a single pushup. But I'm to make no comparisons, because I am precious in His sight and of great value to Him.
You married in obedience to My call; you were called to marriage. I remember heart struggles you have forgotten. I remember wounds that have healed. I remember prayers and fastings you now dismiss as being of no import. "You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?" (Psalm 56:8 ESV).
You are too.
You can find out more about Katie Davis's ministry to the people of Uganda at Amazima Ministries' website: Amazima.org