We try to make ourselves right ahead of coming to the Lord rather than coming to the Lord.
This is an effort bound to failure. If we were able to make ourselves right, Jesus would not have had to rescue us.
Today, Lord, help us to give up working hard to make ourselves right in our own strength. Help us to fall back into Your arms, recognizing our helplessness and sin, accepting Your forgiveness, recognizing we are not our own, we've been bought with a price. We trust You, we say, without fear but in faith, without resignation but with hope, "Thy will be done."
Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20